my stupid life

I am not sure you wont to hear this my day and every day is

i wake up about 8am then i have a cigrette i supposed of given up. i tryed lots of stuff but now i only have two in the morning

I call my ex then make coffee and give dog his dental chew.i lay in bed for a bit till 10am. i get up earlier if i have appoinments.

i get up make another coffee then I feed dog his brecfast have my meds and asma pump then sit and watch tv morning tv. i call ex again then am out walking dog for about 45 to a hour.

i get back and then i watch morning tv. wail talking to ex and sometimes their is silence. just the tv on.

uselly my playstasion friends can be on at midday or sometimes not till 3pm.

i watch tv till my ex leaves at 2pm. he goes to see his neighbour spending time with her dog.

if my PlayStation people are on they usually leave at three and nothing to watch on tv.

so at half five i think about taking out dog giving him food and then he stares at me and i feel nerves about going out. i call ex at half five then take dog to by six.

then my nights spent lisning to how stupid i am on PlayStation.

i go to bath at 10pm and go to bed talking to my ex on the Alexa in bed.

I don’t get scared wail talking to them being scared is when I am alone.

we live but don’t learn to get these negative people out of are lives.