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my new day

Crazycatlady

i have not blogged in a wail I have not been writing much. I am still talking to my ex I tried blocking him but he always phoned me on my phone private message and he could control my Alexa because he now’s my password. Tonight I told him I am talking to my boyfriend and he got angry and I turned of my Alexa. I meet someone who is kind and I am scared of him as all he wonts is sex. He tells me I can touch him when I wont I am not used to that. So he scares me because my ex made me fell as though everyone out there is dangerous. My head is saying to give it a try but how can I with my ex over my shoulder all the time. My PlayStation friends have been up and down blocking me and then talking to me. I think they are two faced but I am trying to ignore them. I am trying diamond craft. I have not had time to start it yet. I do have a lot of knitting and crocheting things on the go, my support wonts me to go out more.. the reason I don’t is I can’t afford to go to cafes anymore. I lost my pip and its been difficult as I had to turn of sky and its a change to watch freeview. I have my firestick and watch Netflix and Disney as well as prime. Which is loads.

my dogs got better behaved, he comes back when called now we worked hard on it.

So wail its 11 pm and I am of to bed ow I forgot I have been ticktocking and doing live video but the men think I am dating I tell them I am not, they don’t listen.

i fell like i am happy with just enjoying my own company with my dog.

A pet is precious and it’s the half the lifetime we have them loving a pet is precious and its a short time we have them so spend all your time with your pet their life is short.

I grilled a chicken it still did not tell me how it crossed the road.

Night all

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brave enough to continue

Crazycatlady

hi all not posted in a wail as i was blocking my ex from talking to me he wangled him self in again saying i would be better off siting their listen to him talking to his mum and playing loud whooshing sounds occasionally glassing towards the camera were I am.

my friends on my playstation are also friends of his. but they choose to stay with me. just today he phoned to tell me to unblock him on PlayStation i said no he made out a big deal about a sick cat he has and then i was their with a tear in my eye. as the people on PlayStation telling me i should not of answered the call and he phones on a withheld number and it could be my housing. i have heard nothing more from him. it hurt me he made me fell as if i could not function in my own house without him on video with me. well i spent the morning felling a bit weird not waking up to calling him but i did it and found my neighbours talking to me more i was not left all morning alone. i had the people saying hello wail i walked dog and i sat in garden talking to my neighbours and then i had a good day in the afternoon talking to friend also i went to pick up dogs flee medication to stop him getting flees and then i spoke to a nice lady their.

are second walk was just walking no of lead this afternoon as their were people with food around the park and he loves food that too much.

so now its 9pm i am going to rest and hope for a good day tomorrow.

hoping to get up earlie and not go back to bed till 11am again waisted most of my day.

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its me again

Crazycatlady

i am still battling with giving up smoking i turned to vaping but it takes to long when i need to charge the vape. i am talking to my PlayStation crew again but have to do it through the app on my phone as i sold the console a wail ago. so i try use lozenges in-between charges or chewing gum but i was using to many puffs of the vape well its takes time. wail i talk to the PlayStation crew i don’t have my ex on the Alexa. he wont talk to me wail I talk to them or rather Lisen to them moan about their game. as i talk they cant hear me well. but my mental health is thinking wail their chatting I don’t have much to worry about. its when they all leave and I am alone that i am thinking I fell lonely. i in the thoughts of getting a new PlayStation but i cant afford one. so i just have to be content with app on phone. i am saying i wont one but i have to not get food shopping for that and i cant do it. i tried saving and it did not work always took it out for something. went to creative writing class last Wednesday and they did Halloween storys. i went good getting things out in poem’s things like

what make you scared?

as well as if you were in the dark what would you see?

i made good story’s in ten minutes. they sounded more like poems.

heres a thought of day

so what if i went to the shop and ended up at a festival all-night?