Author: Crazycatlady

So it is here but the funking killington I wonted fun you gave me a knitmare. So is the head I am stupid nasty and then funking buzz. Fuck you buzz killington so not nice.

Its the month to be happy. In the trust of the things that you hold dear. The trust you learn as your life continues on. Love is a great thing. Exept love can destroy the most hardiest of men. Trust in yourself and always remember to be you.

Sitting on the beach seeing lovers and family thinking can i ever be that. My anger most likely not. Alone on the beach with just my thought and bottle of coffee .

Its a world of suprise.one person interpretation can be misleading in lots of ways. Its a world were ignorance is not always the best policy. The way you fell is they way that can change. Does not change the world but just might change you.

I am cold yet warm but shiver then stop and shiver again. To be warm is to be warm to all well almost all. Its a good nice warm day yet I am cool and shiver in the heat.

Is their some force higher than you stopping the love that shall be denied. Its a force in the clouds and a force in the sea. I am in realty not. As in my thoughts so mad.

it was the day I was looking forward to. the day I get the job. getting up in the morning was so happy. I had a shower and then dressed brushed my teeth had my brecfast and out the door. I jumped the car and drove ten minutes to my new job. I was so pleased to work at the biscuit factory. as driving up you could smell the sweet aroma of the biscuits they were baking. I got out of the car and went to reception. a young lady filing her nails was their. i replayed hello miss I am here to start a new job as a secretary. it ok go straight through said the receptionist. I went through and up the stairs to a few offices a lady greeted and showed me to a desk and she said this will be your desk and you need to transcribe these files. so i got started transcribing the files on the computer. at the hours struck 6pm. I closed the computer put the files away and then said goodnight to the receptionist down stairs I replayed I am sure we will be good friends in time. Yet to meet others at the office it will be their in time. as I made it home I put on the TV and made tea and a cup of tea after I had my tea i headed for a bath and put my jammers on to rest and get a good night sleep. next day I was up at 6am having a brecfast and a shower by 8pm i headed out the door in my flat shoes. I got to the office in the standard uniform i was to wear and i sat copying and transcribing all day. I arched my back to release the tension in my kneck how I need a massage to my kneck. as I was reasting. at home,

doom doom doom the only way to rejoice is doom doom doom am now and always will be a person with no use no prospects.to scared to look forward to scared to look back just frozen in time.. I have no life as I sit on the mountain and look at the big drop. I see that I am worthy of the tree the grass and the ocean. could I be lost in the ocean could I be lost in the land. I am not to be lost as now am a soul that is here and is their and never near.

it were a time to go rejoice rejouiserejouise . it be the world at foot. of others are so nerverase are they. the people see me sweet. the people take my roll as of me. they try and try. as in I have been left alone and destitute. in the mites of thoughts who see that I have no happiness. only happiness they choose. I ach for the one I was shown. he not wanting to know now. passing the choose to others. as I sit on the beach reading my book, I fell slipping away from who I am shall I slip away for happiness. as happiness now has turned their back. I so low on life that I choose to sit and not think as when I think I just yearn for the one I see but cant touch. its a way to be and they evil sister derides to choose. I shall not fight I have none left. as now I am doomed to live my life this way. as a play along NO,

People see just beauty and what i see is the inner persons beauty