since i have been gone

like the song i have been up and down all the time depression can give you bad feelings and not laziness but just not wonting to do nothing.

I had a week wear i was so depressed and not wonting to do anything i watched nothing i just sat and thought nothing i just got in a rut.

i climbed out with help of mind and the sanctuary you can call at night and then i bathed and got cleaned up and took dog out then my head seemed to get better. it was like a curtain closed on my mind and said you don’t need to do anything and become lazy. it was not laziness it was depression and it hit me hard.

luckily i am out of that now. i got processioned by a 25 year old and told i was his dream women. made me fell a little scared and flattered. so i have been live streaming on Facebook and TikTok. I am not sure what i should be putting on TikTok but they seem to like it. especially when I put my dog on camera.

my ex got really nasty recently so limiting the time i talk with him. i have been allowed back in the PlayStation party but i think its a curse but craig calls himself my friend but he would stab me in back for weed. so all is just same again and my ex hating craig and craig annoying him.

thanks for being reading this

depresion hits hard it hits low and most of all it hits when you dont know its their.

chow chow