since my last post i really took my own words and thought about it. i have been in a deep depression feeling dirty and letting my house get really dirty so i was hit with a cleaning bug and started cleaning you should of seen the year of dust under my mat alone. i am not finished but because i almost fell if it was not for a box placed in the right place i could of hurt myself. lucky enough i did not someone’s looking over me. well carmines came over me and no matter how my back hurt i needed to clean it was like having the beach sand with the dust i picked up. i felt as though i was good and not feeling dirty just took me a year and a half to get out of my deep depression. from feeling dirty and low and i was not thinking of myself very high. i wroght that poam and it really made me fell carm and controled of my life. i suggest any one look at my last post. it can help. so thinking i fell good now my floor clean and my things sorted but more tomorrow. i shall clean the bedroom and put a cover on my quilt for a wail in a long time.
to fell that sharp felling of carm and relizesion
to be feeling not dirty.
is a way of being happy.
going on as i need to go on.
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